sian i wan my psp back!!! gt so many games i wan to play especially monster hunter2 my favourite XD dam sian lah jerry gt soul eater n i wan to wif him n yong huang n jerry also final fantasy i want to play wif them!!!o.O sian so boring nowadays...=p
Kushieda Minori
2:58 AM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
hiaz sick from last sun... slept for 10 plus hours till today 3.12am=p woke up and bath(dirty=p)then wen cough i spilt out the thingy donno hw to say then i saw BLOOD?! OMG! i thought my eyes were bluffing me so didn't really care until the second time i cough out BLOOD AGAIN!!AAAAHHHHHHHHH...lol didn't really react too much only shock lah hehe^^
wen to sch everything e same n have maths test n it was only a period and i don even hav time to do fin everything...gonna fail... In MT jerry draw something that mak me laugh n cough lk siao don really wan to say it coz abit sick=p
hiaz commontest tmr on EL and Com Hum...........AH! then y m i still here chatting haha gtg to study bb^^
Kushieda Minori
2:23 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
sian yesterday sick until today with a combination of headache and sore throat then today didn't went to sch as 5plus woke up n my head hurt dam pain ten too bad nv go lor still wondering if i should go to syc ltr for e dance thingy=p pray that i can recover by tis week ba^^ still thinking abt hw vry scared tmr go back sch tio scolded for tis n that hehe^^ nth to write so i'll b ending here^^
Kushieda Minori
11:17 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
lol everything nowadays are getting more n more complicated n i think its weird for me to keep standing the crowd bt it really feels that it dosen't really fit me=p
hiaz the same thing over n over again n i even wonder wat m i really doing nw coz i have no aim...n today was so dam funny lah 1 question of maths even yong huang also donno hw to do n i feel that i need more practice i m sucking at maths nw-_-lll
i wonder if its real or not n wonder if i should say n i even wonder if i should even ask...
nw to many things to ask n too many things i wanted to give back bt i donno wat to do^^
that y i wonder y even though so many things happened bt i can still laugh like a mad man everydayXD
k so i will stop here going to cck stadium to jog hehe^^
Kushieda Minori
2:59 AM
Monday, February 9, 2009
hw stupid of me nt to c tat...
but just one last question"Are you happy?^^"
there's much to say but just want to giv u this last song secretly without u knowing^^
I wonder if u would be there to correct my mistakes by saying that is an excuse not a reason, I wonder if u would be there again to message me n tell me what happen today, I wonder if u would be there again to call me at night n talk to me till morning, I wonder if u would be there again to dare me for what i have done before again, I wonder if u would be there again to tell me the code like what we did together, I wonder if u would be there again to let me do what i have done to u before.
Since u said it i would be somewhere watching you and not letting you see and i would always disappear when i see you.... I would also reply you back to your pm only in my blog...
Boys meant it when they say 459 but some are not and i meant it but too bad i can't explain or say anything to you now but only to think in my mind and write in my blog.
"People always tend to treasure the people they love after they lost them."
I always thought i understand this sentence but in the end i only understand half of it.Why? Because i always regret went i lose someone n i thought before whats the use of regreting since it happen? But now i think it was quite foolish of me cause its natural to regret if not this word 'regret' won't come out.
They always say 'I Love You'= 3 words,8 letters,1 meaning but now that i saw my friends pm i agree that I LOVE YOU is an eight letter word then again so is BULLSHIT!!!!
I wonder why when i am staring in to space you say don't emo but i am not emoing n when i am perfectly fine you say don't sad then if u thought i am sad then say don't emo then my happy becomes emo i wonder why do people always think of that n i also realise one thing about myself my addiction to red tea have been increasing lately and you might not know i might been happy on the outside but i am always struggling in the inside and feel like screaming but i just want to bear all by myself and not letting anyone know.
i think i have nothing to say le so i will stop here.^^
To Girlgirl:Maybe u shouldn't have scold basket to me but instead u should scold me a bastard its not that i want to put a smilely on every message its just that i realised i read a guidance before and it says The American thinker Thomas Paine wrote:"I love the man that can smile in trouble,that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection." and i want to be that guy so i have been trying very hard^^
To bro:U ask if i am ok i struggle to say yes but i said i think so.U should know its hard for me to accept the fact when i am in this state and i am using time to heal myself but it was just the second day and you told me everything and this was the second biggest impact so i am really having a hard time trying to adjust to everything but i still hope the best for you too^^
Kushieda Minori
12:05 AM
Friday, February 6, 2009
In the end i found the thing that i should not have found now... pls everyone stop this i'm sry for this n that i can't go on like tis forever coz i m bearing it... i say i will bear the pain bt u juz don to hurt me n i don care if u juz treat me as a dam friend all i care is u will b friend forever once i met u n i will nv forgt any friends even if u scold me kill me coz u r already in my heart n nth will change tis fact... if u even chance tis upon my blog i noe u will juz leave so i wonder wats e use of typing in my blog?mayb juz for fun?! hiaz forgt forgt forgt n let time heal ur wounds i find it quite common now adays... lol nw nth to say bt only a guidance for myself n everyone:No one can go back and change a bad beginning;But anyone can start now and create a successful ending.^^
To bro:pls don say its ur fault bcoz in the first place i already have did every wrong n make so wrong tat pulled innocent bystanders in so pl stop it coz i only have to take it sliently like a man^^
To girlgirl:its ok le i already have it under control^^ n happy one month to u^^
To my love guru:thanks for the encouragement u gave me n being there wen i need someone^^ thanks so much^^
Kushieda Minori
2:17 AM
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